The illness that lives within,
The walls of my human body,
Visits to doctors,
Drips & needles,
Plus the smell of hospital toilets.
In my twenties using a walking stick.
A hidden quiet wolf,
Ready for it’s prey,
Hunting my healthy blood cells,
Destroying my immune system along the way.
Playing hide & seek,
I’ve been taken to dark places,
Where nobody knows,
The time the air was stolen from my lungs,
Doctors & nurses can be heard,
Through the mist & shining lights,
Saying we have to resuscitate her,
Thinking is this my time to die.
Yes the pain would no longer exist,
But I still have much to do,
Like fall in love & write these words in a poem,
To express what I’ve been through.
My mind & body evolving,
Back to when it once was,
Not the same of course,
Because I’ve transformed.
My last years of a teenager,
Traded in for sickness & been stuck in hospital wards.
I was Samson,
My long hair cut by Delilah,
Disguised as a chemo. Drip.
To the purple tones,
Bruises looking like a artist’s masterpiece,
A montage of shades,
Etched on my skin,
Including the colours,
Black & blues.
Skin delicate like tissue paper,
To be handled with care.
I’m like a purple bellflower,
Blooming in the spring,
I’m the sweet smell of lavender,
My divine essence can comfort you so you can sleep.
I’m the plant that keeps growing,
Because I absorb all there is to be.
Finding my way back,
Was when the warrior in me had to be bold,
To show the world & myself,
I’m the one in control.
Not the pills or the wolf that hunted me down,
Or the butterfly rash that floated across my face,
Everytime my immune system was down.
Like a Phoenix with wings shining brighter than gold.
What seemed like forever,
Was not that at all,
They were just chapters in my life,
A prologue to finding my soul.
Becoming a spiritual being,
Confident & strong,
In mind & body,
To let people who don’t understand know,
You can’t judge a book by it’s cover.
My scars are not an accessory,
They are a journey I have been on.
I’m still alive, I can smile because the day’s are much sweeter,
When I’ve already died.
Brought back from the brief visit to heaven’s gate,
I’m a certified angel living in god’s grace.
To look at my experiences as lessons in life.
To be grateful for everyday,
I get to wake up, stretch my arms & smile.
Embracing my creative gifts & living my best life,
To spread awareness & find the true love I once denied. Lupus SLE & me the undenible magnetic Georgia E.
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